Anna-Marie continued, “Being by myself most of the time caused me to become very shy, and I said little to anyone. The outside world terrified me. I spent much time in my father’s library, reading his classics. I had an imaginary girlfriend named Eugenia, and we played outside in the yard with the animals and plants.

“I got used to being alone. I imagined I had lovely friends, and all of us would go on adventures. Father’s books were perfect for making up adventures. I learned to draw pictures and sew. And the cook and gardener allowed me to help them. They were never mean to me, just not affectionate.

“Just after I turned 14 years old, Governess saw me naked one day. She noticed I had no hair under my arms or over my groin. She asked about periods, and I said I did not know what these were. She explained about puberty.

“The next day, she took me to a woman’s doctor. After her exam, the physician told Governess I would not have children since I was infertile.

“Father came to visit me after Governess spoke to him. He told me I was defective and no man would ever want to marry me. He said I was homely, which I had heard since birth. I will give you to the nuns. It is a suitable punishment for you.

“So, a novitiate I became. I never saw my father again. The nuns were nice to me as they knew of my unusual upbringing. I very much enjoyed the times of prayer and readings, as it was easy for me to imagine that the Virgin Mary was present. The Sisters gave me chores that did not require many contracts with other people.

“I have yet to take the full vows as I am still too young. Sister Agnes Louise watched over me and sent me to help Sister Theresa. It was tough initially, but I could speak with the children, so things improved.

“But I never felt loved by anyone. I think my seclusion damaged me. I never learned how to love because no one loved me. I knew Virgin Mary loved me, and I loved her, but this love did not convince me that people could love me.

“But the Virgin Mother wanted me to know about human love, so she sent you to me, sweetheart. On the first day we met when you held my hand in yours, I felt my heart make a small cry, and my eyes saw the beauty in the world for the first time. I did not understand what happened, but I knew you have always been my best friend, the man who loved me just for being me. I felt my heart beginning to glow with hope.

“And, dearest, you have shown me your endless love, which has allowed Holy Ariel to heal my soul. I no longer mourn my past but look forward to my future. We shall see if the cure is permanent, my love.

“So, my darling, our meeting has healed our hearts and souls. I can love and be loved. You can love and be loved. And perhaps you are correct that one day we shall be married and never parted. I pray for this every night.

“I will take my nightgown off. Come lie next to my tummy, and I will hold you close. Let us imagine you are a little baby inside my womb. Come, my Love, come to me.”

She placed her right arm around my abdomen. I moved so to press my rear against her pelvis and my back against her breasts. She kissed me on the top of my head and began crooning an ancient song about a mother and her new baby. I fell asleep knowing that Sister Anna Marie truly loved me and that my heart had learned to love her.

During one of our visits to Sister Agnes Louise, Sister Anna Marie asked, “Sister, my sweet Miguel needs to touch me as much as possible. We bathe together so he can clean me after I wash him. We sleep together naked, imagining we are really mummy and baby. I know it is innocent and not carnal.

“But, to tell you the truth, I do like to touch and hold his little naked body. When I pray to the Holy Mother, she only smiles at me as if she is happy that I can love and be loved. Am I committing a great sin? What should I do?”

Sister Agnes Louise answered, “Anna Marie, I have already explained the eternal relationship between you and Miguel. You are two gender halves of one soul-seed. Miguel pesters you because he unconsciously understands that nothing may come between you two. And in his young mind, he perceives your nightgown as a hindrance. So, sleep naked with him. After all, you two are married in Heaven; now you are like a mother and natural Child. However, do not tell the other Sisters, as they would never understand. So, off with you. Remember, we have a lesson in the late morning.”

And so, dear readers, our human and spiritual relationship entered a new dimension. I can honestly say that I miss being able to touch and kiss her to this day.

The Second Lesson

The lesson contained herein is straightforward. All things which happen on this Earth are not solely material. Mundane standards of behaviour are not appropriate to judge actions in the spiritual realms. What the soulless see as immorality, the angelic see as the nectar of the Holy Family bestowed onto all living creatures. I hope all of you appreciate this Teaching.

May the Light of Wisdom and the Warmth of Love come eternally into your life in times wonderful and horrible. Hence, you are never far from the God of Your Heart and Realisation. It is up to us to pull and concentrate the quiddities of Divine Love forever surrounding us, so each burns within our inner heart. But more is needed. We must consciously Will to exchange our altruistic Elixir of Love with that of another resonating being. When such a miracle happens, you have found your soul-seed half, and your One Love will shine within the Divine Sun in Heaven.

From the Quintessence Gospel of Gabriel

Love is, as a packet of holy sunbeams,

kissing the receiver’s soul

to keep it warm and protected.

Love accepted must be used or discarded,

it cannot be stored

as cold gems in a treasure chest.

Love cannot be absorbed and returned to another,

it is not a currency of the realm.

Love cannot be traded or bartered,

it is not a camel or a gay carpet.

Rather, the loved one, if she chooses,

may pray fully for her heart

to become a burning fire,

fed by unconditioned Love streaming

from the Holy Sun of the Divine.

Love radiating from two connected hearts

births into existence a true Miracle,

a Divine Miracle,

a Miracle manifesting a heart space

for God to intervene in the pains of all of mankind.

Love is the only Miracle!

Love cannot exist without someone to love, be it self or another. These memoirs teach the importance of remembering that the higher love between two individuals must always acknowledge that Love flows into us from the Creator and consciously radiates to the other. Once we accept the Quale of Love, Compassion, and Caring into our hearts and share with our beloved, such Love returns to the Holy Family. The circle of Holy Love only completes when mankind returns it transformed and personalised.

If you pay close attention, you may understand that one’s societal understanding of Higher love is tainted with judgment and small-mindedness.