THE HOLY SISTERS IN SAN JUAN: Part 5C
Note: Later, I will tell you what I was taught about the many kinds of mysticism. What I am sharing is what I have come to call–engaged or embodied mysticism. This mysticism is anti-escapist for its proponents seek neither to extinguish the Enlightened ‘I’ nor become lost in sensuality. Rather they have eternally committed themselves to serve their lost neighbors, an impossible enterprise, but necessary. For the Love of the Holy Family is not self-directed, nor should their children be self-directed. Warriors never leave the battle, egoists do.
Sister Agnes Louise explained, “Miguel, what you said is very true. But, do not worry for such moments of cognizance will only be present when we have our lessons. While, you will remember what you learned, you will feel like a little boy, a very smart little boy. Moreover, as time goes along you will love Anna Marie more and more and know that you and she are one in essence, but two in expression. Now, you feel that she is your spiritual mother, later, you shall feel that you are her husband.
“This Immaculate Fertilization contained a Divine State of Being which would pattern itself, so to agree with all future Sacred Images created by conscious creatures throughout the Universe, so that such creatures could objectively experience the First Emanation. As the Divine State of Being has Gender, it is experienced as being Male or Female. As They are the First Ones, the early Awakened Beings of the Original Church experienced God in deep contemplation as either Holy Father or Holy Mother. Only later did they discover that the experienced God is both Holy Mother and Holy Father, One in Essence and two in expression.
“Gabriel provided a good analogy when he wrote, ‘To come to a partial understanding of the Unfathomable Nature of Brahman, the Completely Full Emptiness, imagine a golden coin with two different mandalas, one on each face. Moreover, this coin which has extension in two dimensions of space and and a collapsed third dimension, infinitesimally thin. In simpler terms, no observable thickness.
‘If one moves about the coin in three space, we perceive no more than one side at a time. So from our perspective, manifested Brahman appears to possess two sides, two natures, or Gender. However, from the Inner Perspective of Brahman the two sides are always together and never separated.
‘So all that is necessary to manifest the First Emanation is for Brahman to provide the smallest possible thickness between its complementary faces, which is at least as large as Planck’s length. We call this the Immaculate Fertilization of of Hidden Holy Mother.'”
“Our Holy Parents realized that it would be impossible for them to incarnate directly into physical bodies. They needed to first create an aphysical energy which resonated equally with themselves and the material world. Such energy would endow creatures with self-awareness and a connection between themselves and the Holy Ones. Therefore, the Holy Parents joined together so to birth Holy Son and Holy Daughter, Lord Christ and Lady Ariel.”
“The outcome of this Divine Mating being the creation of a Perfect Nuclear Family, a Holy Tetrad stemming from the Divine Essence of the Unfathomable Source which manifests in Creation as a Divine Tetrad. A Family which can Work directly with all conscious creatures so they may be deified, one individual at a time.
“This is the reason that the earthly family is a sacred community for it is a reflection of the Holy Family in the hearts and minds of humanity. It is sad that people have never really appreciated this,” finished Sister Agnes Louise.
Sister Anna Marie asked,”Sister is this all from Gabriel’s Codex? It is so different from what the Churches teach. Why did he not tell Mark, Matthew, and Luke? I am guessing that the story of Lord Jesus’ life is not like that told in the Synoptic Gospels, right?”
Sister Agnes Louise replied, “You are absolutely right. Sometimes the Masters hold back the full truth until the system is ready for it.”
“Sister Agnes Louise, does Gabriel have a heavenly wife who loves him and whom he loves? I hope so for I wish that everyone could be like Anna Marie and myself, but of the same ages,” I asked?
“Yes, he does and her name is Salome. He loves her as much as you love Anna Marie. But, it is not so common, I am afraid,” replied Sister Agnes Louise.
“Sister Agnes Louise, I love you too, just in case you were wondering. I am going to ask Holy Father to make sure that you have a eternal partner after you are done being a nun. I am His helper, you know,” I blurted out.
Sister Agnes Louise bent over and gave me a big hug, “You truly are a helper of Holy Father, as we are helpers of Holy Mother.”
Sister Anna Marie saw that Sister Agnes Louise was a little tired and so excused us so to return to our home.
After we completed some of our chores and had dinner, it was time for prayer and then off to our bath.
But, tonight Sister Anna Marie was not as talkative as usual. She seemed very sad to me and so when we are facing each other in the bath, I asked, “Mummy, why are you so sad? It makes me sad when you are sad.”
Sister Anna Marie answered, “My precious child, I am sad because my father hated and abandoned me. I thought I was rid of those bad times, but I guess I was mistaken. I wanted his acceptance and love very much. But, I try not to think about it most days, for I only want to love my darling child.”
I placed my arms around her neck whispered into her right ear, “I love you Sister Anna Marie. Do you remember that Sister Agnes Louise told us that we have been together on earth many times. Don’t you remember, Mummy?”
Sister Anna Marie replied rather quietly, “Yes, Love, I remember.”
“Don’t you remember that she said, ‘Gabriel says that ones real father or real mother is not the physical vehicle which bears us, though sometimes it is. And since you are my real mummy, I must be your real daddy for the perfection of love by the two soul halves is what is most important.’”
Sister Anna Marie smiled, “So, if I am your true mummy, sister, and wife, then you must be my true father, brother, and husband. I know what we can do, let’s finish our bath and go to bed and we can play a game that you are my real father and you love me more than anyone else. We will create a new childhood for me, which is happy and which we are together. OK?”
I smiled, “OK, Mummy.”
After our nightly bathe, we went to our bed room and Sister Anna Marie said, “Miguel, I want you to sit at the headboard of the bed and I will rest my head in your lap like I was your baby. You, can stroke my hair and sing one of our songs. I think it will take awhile for us to substitute our imaginary childhood for my sad one. I know it will work. I know that imagining that I am the baby and you are the adult will bond us even closer.”
So I stroked her hair and imagined being a Daddy. I told her, “Daddy loves his baby girl, his Anna Marie. Daddy is proud of her.”
Sister Anna Marie started to cry softly, “Daddy, Daddy, there you are.”
So Sister Anna Marie and I acted out a childhood where I was grown up as her daddy. We pretended many things and Sister Anna Marie slowly brightened and was her old happy self in a few weeks.